“I don’t have a fear of commitment. I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it, but I keep pushing because I hope this thing, this universe, there’s no way that I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad, if I want it, someone else out there must too.”
“you want the truth?
no, I didn’t mean it when I said I loved you.
If I could replace every “i love you”
with “I could love you but maybe later”
but I would have never loved you,
I never wanted to.
I liked fucking you
because I felt no emotion.
it just felt like you were erasing something in me.
we were easy.
I didn’t have to lose sleep thinking about
your crooked little smile
and I didn’t have to lose my thoughts
to the way you pour your coffee.
I didn’t love you
and I know you didn’t love me either.
it was just easy to say,
like saying I love you was saying sorry.
the truth is
there’s plenty of fish in the sea
but for some reason
I keep catching you.”
“Between what is said and not meant, and what is meant and not said, most of love is lost.”
“I leave my affairs to You, Ya Allah.
I’ll do my best and leave everything else to You. :’)”
“Which do you want: the pain of staying where you are, or the pain of growth?”
“When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it’s safe inside your mouth.”
“I always find myself caught between saying too much and not saying enough”
“This is an apology letter to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go.”
“Once you lose someone it is never exactly the same person who comes back.”